Righteous Heretics
The car door creeks shut, as if to appear mournful over my lose. The rain trickles over my metal shield but my face is not impervious as much to water. My hands clasp my head firmly as I shove it down and bow in my tears. “Mom!, you said you’d never leave me!!” My head jolts up, my eyes now a fiery red of betrayal and despair. My ducts begin to steam up as I smash my hands on my legs. “You promised you’d always be here for me!!” As if I received a hay maker right to my jaw, my head slams into the seat’s cushion, with my hands flowing in motion to lazily conceal my eyes from the world. As if my sadness could stop frothing, I begin to beg. “God? God it’s me, please bring my mother back.” There is nothing I have left, my heart now as dark as my dress, my lord is my only help. Maybe he’ll listen this time. God, I hope he listens.
Righteous Heretics:
There are few people left that even bother prescribing to the irrational proposal of predestination. Yet most people see the world as a continuous timeline, with a set in stone past ending in an unknowable future. This structured time schedule leads many to desire they could just change a few discrete moments in their own timeline. An embarrassing birthday party perhaps, where your mother made the valiant effort to invite that girl in your class, that makes you redder than a cherry to see and you just happen to whack her up-side the head with the baseball bat swing you so keenly were planning on smashing the Papier-mâché horse that is tantalizing everyone on a string with, surely resulting in impressing the girl. Instead of showering her with sugar filled goodies, you shower her with a week in the hospital and a scar she’ll need plastic surgery to get over and a huge psychiatrist bill she’ll probably never forgive you for, but I digress.
There are many eerily similar events in everyone’s pasts we’d all like to change, ranging over moments that made you blush to moments of extreme desperation, we all universally desire the “could of been.”
For the following to have any prevalence, the argument below works off of believer’s claim that God created the universe and prayer actually being a viable form of communication. As stated before most people don’t believe in predestination anymore, however, fate and trusting in God’s will are still commonly held beliefs among people of faith.
For those who believe in a omnipotent and omnipresent God, praying starts to appear a little frivolous. God already wrote the play of life and we all have been assigned our respective roles. If you want to make a costume change or have more lines, your prayers almost always seem to fall into the despair of the cosmos they were directed towards. A director not wanting to change his pride and joy over some actor’s discomforts should not be surprising to anyone. After all the God lord shares many of our imperfect human traits.
The Jeudo-Christian God in-particular has been shown to suffer from multiple imperfections, and to no one’s astonishment, is very jealous individual. This entity laid down the ground work for the entire universe and confidently bestowed one of his celestial bodies with life. Confident that this life would fulfill the one reason it was designed into existence for blind worship with absolute devotion. So you can imagine how it must make God feel when we pray for a change to his perfect plan.
The egotistical dictator can not handle be questioned by his sub-ordinates. Many psychopathic leaders in history have excelled the innovation of torture techniques to instill this as a virtue. Not only is talking back not very often tolerated by even the kindest of parents, it generally is pursued fiendishly by an ambivalent punishment. Soap in the mouth, a whipping from a switch or a good paddling fall into the seemingly renaissance punishments of the 20th century. Kids in modern times befall the fate of having the non-essential rights of the phone, television, video-games, or basic recreational activities with peers, revoked.
However, you can’t simply put someone in the dunce corner when you are master of the universe. Divine retribution is quite the spectacle and has a lure about it, for the un-damned. It would be asinine to believe that God would responded kindly to being questioned. He is the embodiment of perfection, thus if you find yourself praying for the divine laws of fate to change in your favor, you can begin to be enlightened on your own self-prescribed damnation.
Those who question the almighty must be put to death, a theme found repeatedly throughout the biblical texts pertaining to but not limited to; non-believers, believers of another god or gods, skeptics, doubters, false priests, defectors of the church, hypocrites, blasphemers, and frankly anyone who didn’t hold Jesus as lord and savior and God as the highest priority in their hearts. So to infer that praying for the almighty’s plan to be changed in even a minuscule way could be classified as its own self-centered form of blasphemy is not absurd. After-all, this would make you a doubter of his infinite wisdom and imply ineptitude, a human trait that Yahweh is not known to have. Such insults would land any believer in the gaping hole of unspeakable, unstoppable, and the ever so infinite series of atrocities, known plainly as Hell.
Believers beware when you close your eyes at night and pray for the safety of loved ones! Your intentions may be in the right place, but your hearts have mis-lead you. You’ve strayed off the path of blind follower and strayed ever so slightly into the realm of doubt. To doubt God when you see suffering in the world, means you might as well of crucified the lord, himself, because you’ve committed a crime in your heart against him. You must never question the lord’s mysterious and quite controversial means with your prayers for reality to be changed in a favorable way to one’s self.
Praying for changes in life is the easiest way to show doubt to God, after-all he’s the only one listening to them.
-TMF
Conclusion for: Essential Desperation and A Direct Connection
(Thanks for reading the first personal opinion post. Prayer is the easiest way to say you care without actually doing something. Have a good day. )
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